ahhh... i get it now...

so yeah..... all that stuff that tfa said about, "you are going to feel like a failure lots of times" is now actually starting to make sense. i only have three students right now, and i feel like i am failing them. how am i supposed to teach three or four classes of twenty or more students in the fall if i can't even teach three right now? its not as easy as one might think, this whole teaching thing. i have no misbehavior issues, but that doesn't mean that my students are actually learning anything in my class. today i was outside of class because the fire alarm had gone off and i asked carlos (one of my three) what we had learned in class so far this summer. he responded with a solid.... "uhhhh..." and was silent for another good 10 or 15 seconds. he then luckily was able to rattle off a few key topics, but trust me it was not a good feeling. i know i've only been teaching for a week and i know it will get better, but failure does not feel too good. this is what i asked for though. i wanted something challenging and this is and will be extremely challenging. i can't imagine what it will be like in the fall with 20 to 30 eyes on me, some interested, some not, waiting for me to teach them. its going to be a long road. just wanted to rant for a bit, back to lesson planning.